All the cool kids are doing it, I guess I will, too.
Something went wrong, somewhere. Somebody gave up, gave in. I saw what I needed to do and failed. Story of my life. Failure. Rejection. Laughing blatantly in my face and then criticizing me for my reaction. I held my head up for so long, pushed past it all and said fuck it, I’m better than all this. But really, how long can one keep doing that? How long can you keep smiling politely while wanting to rip their faces off? I’ve been told too many times that I’m strong, I’ve gone through so much and never gave up. But they’re wrong, I gave up a long time ago. I’m just going through the motions of life. I failed everyone I came in contact with. I can’t provide for my kids, I can’t be the wife he wants, I can’t even be the friend they need. I’m just here. And its all slipping away slowly. Survival is being pulled from my grasp. Reality is laughing at me.
